Well I think I'm done now. Time to move out, move on. Shame that the house I really liked has already been rented.

MC last night was interesting. She seems to want me to have heard stuff she then admitted she'd never even tried to say. She doesn't ever want to be "looked after", doesn't ever want to be reliant on anyone, and is 85% sure the relationship is over. Still no further clues about what I've done wrong other than possibly not being viewed by her as open enough to talk to about the things she didn't want to talk about. She did the same in previous relationships also it seems. She still doesn't think feelings can be changed by actions, or that she'll ever feel "in love" again.

She wants to be friends. She likes spending time with me, likes that we have similar hobbies, thinks I understand her, and finds me intellectually stimulating. She doesn't believe that you should ever have to compromise on any of your wants or needs in a partner. The latter is the biggest red flag for me. I told her she was welcome to a single life if that is the case.

Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.