WAW tearing up our family part II

[ironMan]

So, she was supposed to be home tonight because she was "just seeing how the baby would adjust" to sleeping at Grandma's with WAW.

She decided to just stay there from now on.

W's Mom invited me to dinner since I changed my plans so that I could see my D.

I ate dinner with them .... it was INCREDIBLY difficult. W gave me a hug .. asked how I was doing. I told her I was good but today was hard.

She said she had a hard day too. I asked her if she was staying at her Mom's for good now ... she said she was thinking maybe yes .... and asked why. I told her I was making plans and wanted to know what to plan around so I wanted to know what she was doing.

She said, "I don't know what I'm doing"

She really has stumbled through this whole thing. Very strange for somebody that was always a planner.

I have had a very hard time tonight. I feel like there is a hole in my soul.

But, I'm going to stay busy. I'm not dreading things ... I just wish I wasn't in this situation.