Thank you for that insight, Bear. It's nice to get a man's perspective in all of this. It's very perplexing to me. I feel like my father somewhat prepared me for this in that he told me how uninterested he was in me until he held me for the first time, but I know that he didn't have the accompanying marital BS at that point in time....
So today has been interesting. At 6 AM Cali time, he texts me and asks if I want to pick him up from the airport. To which I said, "well, I would, but you drove yourself...." I guess he forgot about that tidbit (he rarely drives himself)? I then also realized that this meant his car was parked out in the open for the nasty hail storm we had earlier this week and told him about that. He was completely unaware we had such weather.
Then a few hours later (I guess when his work day was really started), he texted again saying:
H: "Just found out team is changing... merging with another team" Me: "What does that mean?" H: "Diff responsibilities now" Me: "More travel?" H: "No. Just diff jobs. There's an opening for team lead" Me: "Do they want you to take it?" H: "I'm going to ask about it. I could try to meet face to face w Boss's Boss about it but she's not available today...." Me: "Would OW still be your partner?" H: "If I got that job? No, I'd be lead but 'over' 4 other people." Me: "Is she still going to be your partner in the merger if you don't get that position" H: "Yeah, but there are other openings. I'm going to ask about those too" Me: "Are they all based in our state?" H: "I think in both. Depends where the person is. Should I try?" Me: "Idk. What do you want?" H: "I'd like to. Don't matter where it'd be. But I'd like to talk w the big people here first." Me: "Yeah that makes sense. I'm guessing you'd be a good candidate with your work ethic and recent govt clearance" H: "Yeah. Should I stay or leave today and talk via email" Me: "I think you should come home because I'm so close to the end. If I weren't due any day, I'd tell you to stay"
I then go on to tell him about what happened at church yesterday. He seemed very concerned. He said he wanted to know what the doctor said at my appointment this afternoon before he made his decision on the flight. The doctor said she's perfect and I just need to keep taking it easy and hydrate. When I relay this message to H, he says:
H: "Oh good. I'll set up meeting for tomorrow and flight Thurs morning. That way I can teach a class Wed. That going to be ok?" Me: "I can't help but think you just want to be out there longer to stay away." H: "If that's the case then I'd stay thru Satruday, not leave Thurs" Me: "What about coming back after your class on Wed?" H: "I can if I find a good price" Me: "Ok" H: "But I'd get in at midnightish???" Me: "Well, I guess it's your call for comfort. Would you rather spend more money for another night in hotel and come back Thurs morn or save the money but drive home late Wed." H: "Ahh, good point"
He never actually makes a decision on this (or at least he never tells me). But a few hours later he asks if I'm willing to go over to his parents house for Easter Sunday and then asks if he can put the crib together on Saturday. I say:
"Easter might be a little late due to singing at church but we can go as soon as I'm done. I put the crib together already. Her room is pretty much finished except for a few things I can't afford right now."
And that's the last we've talked for tonight. Although I'm sure there will be more. I emailed him earlier this evening because when I came home my brother was here (he was supposed to be at work). He was fired today. Apparently he slept in past when he was supposed to show, and was fired. He had also missed work on Wednesday because he was sick and did not call in then either. Brilliant. But at least he agreed to stay with me until H comes back, and he said he would do work around the house for me in the next two days whenever he's not looking for a new job. So I let H know the situation on that.
I am personally exhausted. While I had a really good day at work, and what seems to be a really good convo throughout the day with H, I'm just really hitting a wall physically. I still have so much to do. At least Brother can help out a little more in the upcoming days.
I just need more hours in the day. Or more energy. Or both.
