Punkin, It's difficult not to count down the days when you know the date is looming in front of you. Instead of counting down to the divorce, think of it as the stress will be alleviated and you begin your new life not looking over your shoulder.
We all have done this and when you look at the glass half full instead of half empty, the view changes and so will your feelings about the situation.
It will get better...we all have dreaded that day, but once it's behind us, the weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you can actually breathe a sign of relief in knowing that the hardest part of your life's decision has been completed. Please be kind to yourself and know that we are all here for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.