Nothing to add to my sitch, just hope everyone made it through the storms well last night. The sirens went off about midnight - my D called to tell me. I went to my cubby and curled up. It was quite scary for awhile. The hail was huge. The power kept going on and off. The whole storm, start to finish lasted about 1.5 hours. I have a metal roof, and you couldn't even hear yourself think. The news this morning said there was damage in town, that even some ornamental metal work was bent by the winds.
ME: 54 Him: 51 M: 20 years T: 21 years OW/New wife: 36 Sons & Daughters: 7 (ages 24-36) Bomb: March 4, 2010 He Filed: April 28, 2010 I Contested: May 1, 2010 Standing Down: 11/24/10 Divorced : 05/04/2011
I had my nails and hair done yesterday. Made appointments for the day before the court date to do the same. Also made appt. for full one hour massage day before court. Trying to get myself psyched up for the whole thing.
Went out to dinner last night with a friend and watched television at his house for awhile. Back home by 10:30. What a party animal I am.
Keeping GS3 tonight and all day tomorrow. Going to introduce him to going to church tomorrow morning. It's been a long time since I wrangled a little one in church. They have a nursery, but I think he should be able to mind himself for one hour.
BFF had some pretty major storm damage. Ended up cutting down about 12 huge pine trees that were split or completely upended. Punched a hole in the wall of her office (next to her house) Her husband's State Work truck looked like an ad for not drinking and driving. You had to be a midget to drive it.
Countdown continues. While I am making a good show, I am really falling apart. Common sense has no home in my mind right now. Starting to think of all the "last ditch, no hold, STUPID things I could be doing right now, like contacting H. Haven't heard a word since the truth dart email 10 days ago. That's no surprise, but still I check my old email. SIGH! If he did reply, it would just be ugly-grams.
Made up Easter pkgs. for all my grands. Got to get the ones in the mail for Colorado today.
I don't know what I expect/want. Like CW, if my H returned bearing gifts of gold, I'd still want to be detached enough to demand things go slowly.
Yeah, one would have to check if that gold isn't fool's gold. Try not to do the countdown ... it might slow down time, and make you more anxious, and lead to wishful thinking. But, you know, I understand.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
Just sending you hugs! I don't think there is anything to say to make this easier but I agree with BM on counting down the days! Your sig says it all "Live your Life or it will Live you"...counting down the days is making IT live you!
Hang in there! You never know what life is going to throw atcha!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
Punkin, It's difficult not to count down the days when you know the date is looming in front of you. Instead of counting down to the divorce, think of it as the stress will be alleviated and you begin your new life not looking over your shoulder.
We all have done this and when you look at the glass half full instead of half empty, the view changes and so will your feelings about the situation.
It will get better...we all have dreaded that day, but once it's behind us, the weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you can actually breathe a sign of relief in knowing that the hardest part of your life's decision has been completed. Please be kind to yourself and know that we are all here for you.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
