Recovering after a same sex affair - Part 4

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Thanks GB90 and OWM. It's been another week of more the same. I may take up boxing once this is all over. I could probably last a few rounds against a pro with all of the ducking and dodging that I have been practicing.

I have to keep telling myself that this is temporary. The understanding that her anger will not last forever is the only thing getting me through this. Right now, she is avoiding any kind of personal conversation that does not relate to our S. She has also been less responsive with questions regarding our S, which is not okay to me. I understand that you do not want to talk about your crappy life right now, but we agreed that our S comes first.

My S has been doing great. Little guy now has two teeth popping through. He is still super congested, but he has been all smiles. My Mom came in town over the weekend, so it was nice for her to spend time with her grandson.

I have been taking care of myself. I spend my hour lunch break outside exercising. This daily habit should be good for me. I have been having fun with friends. Going to some great concerts. Having beers or dinner out. W is aggravated that I am spending a lot of time with one of her best friends who also happens to be a good friend of mine. He is one of a few of our friends that know my W and I are having troubles. We avoid all convo about W and I, so that he is not placed in the middle. but apparently, he has been inviting me out and brushing off my W's interests in going out on her nights. Oh well. I don't control his actions. W needs to understand that she does not control that as well.

Had a rough day yesterday. I actually broke down in tears a few times missing her. Once in church when I saw the pre-school class come back to their families during the service. All of the Moms and Dads welcoming their little ones. Just the thought that I may not be able to experience that with my W made me sad. Later in the day, I visited a friend who just had their baby. Walking around the same same hospital wing where my W and I had our S made me a little emotional.

Overall, I am keeping my head up and staying strong. There are still days that I struggle, though. I just need to remind myself that her anger is a good thing right now. It means that she cares.