I guess its really up to you. Maybe God is telling you that if you choose to stand, that is how it will be like. I'd be upset too if I were you. The last dream I had I actually cried out in my sleep and woke up because H was shaking me, and telling me that I was dreaming. He said I was crying without tears.
Have you seen Courageous Wifes'post in the MLC forum? Read up on what is happening to her, just shows that for God, anything is possible. By the way, I have been reading a lot of testimonies from Charlyne Cares and it helps keep up my spirits. I have really decided to stand for my marriage now, as long as I can take it.
Offer up your pain to God this Holy Week.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go