I am so used to sitting down and thinking about things. But I do know about myself that when I over think, I make poor choices.
I am so gun shy to ACT (without thinking sometimes) because I make poor choices in those times and they've bit me... bad...
I need to find a balance between "thinking things through" and "being in the moment" (aka thinking on my feet).
Practice, practice, practice... "fake it 'til you make it"... :-)
But there is a certain amount of "book work" that I have been avoiding. The "new me plan". Act as if D. Act as if single parent. Act as if GAL. Plan the work and work the plan. Make adjustments on the go.
I know what I have to do. I will plan the time and I will do it. I will find my focus. I will find my balance. I will find "me". And I will plan and do.
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Expectations? I thought I don't have expectations... Is "hope" an expectation? She'll get what she gets out of it. I hope it's good. I hope it falls within my "expectations". But if we still ended up exactly where we were, then I'd have to keep going with the "plan".
I think you all know about that "plan"... the one where there is no plan... ;-)
