She has my kids. I do not have the financial ability to fight her. I am waiting, hoping she will come to her senses. I do not know where to begin, but I do not want to go to the "authorities" to solve this.
I am afraid that if I complain, if I say my peace and piss her off, she will withhold the kids from me. She has done it before. She hides it under "the kids have plans".
I don't know what to do.
Kaffe,
She can't keep you from talking to, and seeing, your own kids. You have legal rights here. If you're not fully aware of what they are, I suggest you see a good family law atty right away -- preferably one who specializes in "men's rights" and paternal custody issues.