Wow I am having a tough time today. I think the big thing that is affecting me was finding out from immigration yesterday that it's now going to be a minimum of 12 months for me to get back into the States to see her, and that's only if everything goes extremely well.
Meanwhile her last letter is telling me to go out on dates like she is going to.
This is feeling pretty rough right now.
I think my best approach here is just to be really cool, be totally accepting and validating of everything she does, while patiently working towards another week long vacation with her sometime.
I'm sure that's bound to happen one day as long as I don't pressure her in any way. So I'm gonna have to take what comfort that I can from that objective, while working on my long term goals and enjoying my days along the way.
Hope you all are finding some peace and happiness in your day today, as for me I can't wait until this day is over so I'm heading off to bed.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
