18 Wheels and a Dozen Roses

[AJM80]

Guys, I am really struggling with all the stress and excess emotion. He's being kind and supportive and it's just making me angry and hurting me. Why couldn't we have been like this a year ago? How am I starting to feel more love for him again and there's no promise of love back? Maybe it's time to shut him out and go dark to shelter myself?

I need a vacation from myself. I'm so angry at him - what if I get stuck like this? Where's the boundary between db'ing and holding on to something that's gone or unhealthy?

It's some kind of healing crisis I guess. I got through to another level, so my mind is reopening some wounds that hadn't really healed so they can.