Side Trip from Forward Motion

[BeingMe]

I agree with both of you ... I probably have stood for way too long. Of course, during my illness, I couldn't do much about it, since I was fighting a different battle, and concentrated all my efforts onto that. But, now I am pretty healthy, and starting to think again, that this M is over. In retrospect, I should've divorced him 6 years ago, but the past is the past. No regrets, but I do have to move on and live my life. While H is away, I feel like I'm in Park, gathering dust, waiting. He, on the other hand, is traveling to exotic countries, busy with work, being entertained by his bosses, and who knows who else. He doesn't know what it's like for me, because even when he is home, and I'm away, he is busy with work, having conference calls, etc. I've told him so often, that I'm done with this M, so this time I'm going to do what I need to do, and then just leave. I doubt he'll be surprised.