Antonia, I really relate to you sitch. I saw so many parallels and with no children for to keep us with a need to stay in contact I don't have much hope for a future with H. I hope to see my step sons but he controls that for the most part too and just wants to get on with his life without reminders of me.
Tad, I read your posts and feel so much of what you're feeling. I take all the advice given to you as I can see how to apply it to my feelings and actions as well.
I haven't heard from H since Tuesday. Wednesday I left on a 10 day business trip and don't plan to contact him. I can see his tweets and know that with SS at his mom's for the weekend H and OW are shacked up at his place...posted about wine and a movie with his two best friends...her and our dog would be my guess. It was November that he turned to me in bed one night and said how happy he was to have me as his best friend.
Anyway, I'm enjoying my trip. I have some good friends in CA at my new job and have been out with someone every night since I've been here. It helps to keep my mind off things. I'm going to hang out with my brother today. Not sure what we're doing but it'll be nice to see him. I was gonna head to Tahoe with the girls Sunday but with spring break they're thinking the 4 hour drive could take more like 6 on the way back so instead we're planning a spa day at the Ritz Carleton. That should be fun too.
I get sad...I miss my relationship with H. I realize he's no longer the same person and it breaks my heart that the future I thought we had is gone. I keep hoping he'll wake up...realize OW is a controlling witch after him for his money and want me back but I don't see that happening...it's like he feels he made this choice and now needs to make the best of it. I pray for him...I pray for me to do the right things...to know what my path is and have the guidance and strength to walk it.
I pray for everyone here. Thank you to everyone for your encouragement and advice.
