Cautiously optimistic

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Journaling------

I have a couple of thoughts racing through my mind right now.
The first one being, sometimes when I read about other people's sitch's on here, I feel so much anxiety. Like "OMG what is this happens to me?" When I read about H's having EA/PA. I am about 99.9 % positive that isn't the case with my sitch, but can you understand why I get so fearful? As much as I want to support other people on this BB, I am scared to read what they are going through because I am scared it could happen to me. The last thing I want to do is appear selfish and only caring about what is going on in my life.

Second-I am actually feeling a little bit better today. I am really, really going to try to keep a positive attitude. I know things in life need to change, and I also know that I am sometimes scared to try to change them because I'm afraid of failure.

I'm sick of living in fear. Sick and tired of it. I want to be a confident, independent women. So today I am going to start my journey to become that person.

I made a list of things that I would like to do to GAL for myself, and some of the things are:

Try horseback riding
Take a cooking class
Take a yoga class
Join a book club
Try indoor rock climbing

I won't bore you all with the entire list.
Some of my ideas will be easier to try than others. Let's face it, I'm a single Mom with 2 boys so money is kind of tight. I'm sure I can make a couple of these work for me.