I'm a Wreck and in need of HELP!!!!!!!

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I am so sorry to hear about your H's A. I am sure that was a devastating blow to you. However, you CAN get through this.
I know what helps me during extremely difficult times is I make myself a list of very specific goals and tackle them one at a time. I don't start the next one until the first goal is complete. They don't even have to be life changing goals. Some days they are simple like "take a shower" because yes, some days I need encouragement to do even the smallest things.

The important thing you need to remember is that under no circumstance is this A your fault. At all.