Nice to see you back after such a long absence. I see you have made some progress I also see your setbacks. I suppose the key words here is patience and consistency.
You are going to slip along the way as long as you do not lose sight of your goal and you keep trucking along you will be ok.
The trust issues is prob in both directions. When you come so close to the end and then start working your way back any wrong move can send you spiralling downward.
