Oh yes, she was worried I would flake out. My fault.

I have to admit that I did bring up the possibility of walking away from it all with her in the past. Asked her if she could stand the thought of just the two of us living together.

But she and I agreed then that nothing lasts forever, that this will pass. I think she is confident that her dad loves her too much to leave (and who knows? its the main reason he is still with us, to be sure. My D actually was a DB'er even before i learned about DB!

Seeing me have anxiety attacks though made her doubt my strength.

I have explained to her that actually, the anxiety attacks were protective to me - much like a pressure release.

Hopefully she understands. I also keep my fingers crossed that I won't have those anymore....


Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18
Bomb: 6/26/10
EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ???
11/5/11 Retrouvaille
Finally piecing....
Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go