I forgot to mention that when H was out of town, I had to go by his office to pick up some info for taxes. It was the first time I had been there during working hours since our S 2.5 years ago. No lie. It was a quiet day, and H's secretary, receptionist and I chatted for a while. They were clearly still distressed about our S, sympathetic, supportive and kind. It was nice.
So today, I had to go by to pick up our returns. It was the first time anyone in his office had seen us together since our S. I spoke briefly to a couple of his colleagues, and then we chatted in his office for a while about taxes and our graduating D. When I left to go to work, I walked through the reception area, greeting both the secretary and receptionist warmly, and they responded in kind. It sounds funny, but I actually felt the respect they both have for how I am comporting myself.
This has been my goal from the beginning -- accept my failings, work to be and do better going forward, while acting purposefully in ways that are true to who I am, will not hurt others, and I will not regret. At least for these, I felt like a success today.
M 65 H 64 T 39 & M 36 @ S 12/08 Two Ds
Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man
