I don't know if this will resonate with you, but have you ever listened to Esther Hicks? I started to recently and it's changing my life. You can look up some recordings on YouTube by searching Abraham-Hicks and hear different recordings about relationships, etc.
You're doing phenomenally well for someone who thinks their husband might be having an affair. Really, in the end, he can't hurt you (that's what A-H) says. I know it's a long stretch of the imagination to get there b/c he is a part of your life and As HURT! But no one can really steal your peace of mind. Not unless you allow them to.
I know that's sooo much easier said than done. But it is a possible reality.
Anyway, I hope you have a better night or a better day tomorrow. Try to find some peace in yourself and let the rest go, even for a few minutes.
