Another New Day 2

[islander]

You are right Country. I need to stick with it. It will keep me occupied for sure.

Anyway, I am very pi$$Ed I guess, but I shouldn't be. Of all o the things to be upset about, I don't know why I let this bother me so much.

I noticed today that my W went running with OM, and that she did so last wek too. (really, why do I care?? WTF is wrong with me)

It bothers me so much bc that is what we used to do together. Then a couple months bf the bomb, W starts saying she doesn't like running with me, it's not me, she doesn't like running with anybody. Now she runs with everybody.

I guess it is just another thing that hurts me. As I write this, I am even getting more upset about it.

Other than that, I have had very little contact with W. She tm me today and said that she saw my D at a fast food place while she was working. I thought about not replying, but about 30 min later I decided to ask if she got to talk to her. She said my D was excited to see her bit hesitant when she ran up to her,
and I replied good.

Anyway, I ran almost 7 miles this morning. I think it helped me to run bc I was upset. I felt better after, but now just sorta blah.

I still find myself wondering how in the world I got here, how my W could have made the choices she did. That is so far from the person I knew, loved, and married.

I am keeping very busy, but this is always on my mind.