Another New Day 2

[islander]

I called my W a little bit after she left. She did not answer but called me as soon as she woke up (I could tell she had been sleeping). She was working tonight, so I asked her if I could pick up my SD from school today to spend some time with her, and then take her to her parents tonight. She said that was ok.

When I picked up my SD from school, she was very excited to see me and excited to come to our house with me. We played several games before I took her to my in laws for dinner. We had a good night, and now I am tired from not sleeping last night.

I am so glad she likes spending time wit me. It makes me feel pretty good, and we have a good time together.

[~¤DG¤~]

That's great that you got to spend time with your SD. It sounds like it was a good day.

[islander]

Thanks. It was a pretty good day, even getting to spend time with my W doing taxes. The things we look forward to. At one point I asked her if she wanted to come back friday to finish the taxes bc I was getting tired. If I am totally honest though, I just wanted to see her again.

So tonight I pulled out my guitar that has been in my closet for the last 7 years. I played around with it for a little bit. I think I am going to really learn bow to play it this time, so i am going to leave it out so I don't have an excuse not to. It's funny, right bf I met my W is when I stopped playing (it was nothing to do w her). I guess it is another way for me to GAL. fishing, learning guitar, running.

[islander]

How do you let go of something you want more than anything?

I need to just let her go, she is already gone.

I know she did it. She found somebody else so it was easy

How do I do it the hard way??

[ninelives]

Islander :

We are in the exact same boat dude. We have no choice man. We just have to be consistent. The valleys are there, we just have keep them spaced further apart until they disappear.

I just posted almost the exact same thing on my thread.

Funny. Only funny like cancer.

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[♪CS♪]

So tonight I pulled out my guitar that has been in my closet for the last 7 years. I played around with it for a little bit. I think I am going to really learn bow to play it this time, so i am going to leave it out so I don't have an excuse not to.

Nice!

I can tell you this. When I am playing guitar I DO NOT think about W. Can't. I have to concentrate on playing.

Great release. Stick to it.

[islander]

You are right Country. I need to stick with it. It will keep me occupied for sure.

Anyway, I am very pi$$Ed I guess, but I shouldn't be. Of all o the things to be upset about, I don't know why I let this bother me so much.

I noticed today that my W went running with OM, and that she did so last wek too. (really, why do I care?? WTF is wrong with me)

It bothers me so much bc that is what we used to do together. Then a couple months bf the bomb, W starts saying she doesn't like running with me, it's not me, she doesn't like running with anybody. Now she runs with everybody.

I guess it is just another thing that hurts me. As I write this, I am even getting more upset about it.

Other than that, I have had very little contact with W. She tm me today and said that she saw my D at a fast food place while she was working. I thought about not replying, but about 30 min later I decided to ask if she got to talk to her. She said my D was excited to see her bit hesitant when she ran up to her,
and I replied good.

Anyway, I ran almost 7 miles this morning. I think it helped me to run bc I was upset. I felt better after, but now just sorta blah.

I still find myself wondering how in the world I got here, how my W could have made the choices she did. That is so far from the person I knew, loved, and married.

I am keeping very busy, but this is always on my mind.

[♪CS♪]

So what is the first thing you can do to get past the anger?

[islander]

To realize that this doesn't matter.

IDK

What do you think?

[♪CS♪]

I wouldn't say this doesn't matter. All of this matters. One way or another this will change our lives. The question is. How will it change it? That is very much in our control.

What do you think?

I can't answer this. What makes you happy? Find it.

Here are some of mine:
Daughter
Guitar
Music
Going out
Golf


So what do I do? I do the things I enjoy. Guess what? It helps!