Very tough "Catch 22," buddy. But, take a look at what happened to me the other night when I decided to let my guard down. She came back on Monday with a hammer. It will be hard, but you are going to have to let her feel like you are gone. Otherwise, she will never feel the true sting of what she has done.
Good luck!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...