I am pretty new to the boards so I am not too familiar with your sitch, but I hear ya on the whole trust issue. I have trust issues also, and I deal with them each and every day.
I really wish I had some magical words of wisdom for you to make you feel better, but I don't. Just know that I am here to support you and that I care.
"Everyone you meet has baggage. Find someone who loves you enough to help you unpack." ¤Formerly DelinquentGurl¤