Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Update....

I finally got the draft decree from wife's lawyer. I guess this is it then. There are some issues i wanted to iron out before i sign these papers. I know the final act is still pending, but it does seem like the end today. It is still very confusing in my mind. Should i pursue her after this or should i just drop.

Yesterday when i called to talk to daughter, wife was teaching daughter alphabets. For each alphabet she used to associate with her family members. She never had any from my side even when we were together. It never bothered me. What bothered me was that she also never said 'N' for nana(means dad in my language). I did'nt think much of it. Yesterday she again went with alphabet-name association for her family and then also went with M for mommy. Then i interjected and said hey how about N for nana. Wife says 'she just started learning the alphabets and she has not come to N yet. So don't confuse her'. Confuse her??? N is after M !! It hurt a lot that wife still gives so much importance to her family than she ever did to me. Now i guess i cannot expect anything, but it sill hurts.

Is this the girl i want back in my life? 3 years after being married she said once during conversation that her mom/dad and sister came first. Only then it was me. It never hit me then that she really meant it. It shows now.

Just a really bad day today...