Journaling: W has decided not go to the baby shower. I suspect, but I don’t know why. She sent a TM telling me she will be available to inventory the household goods this weekend. I have plans for this weekend and will suggest we meet next Saturday as we previously arranged.
I am having a difficult time emotionally right now. The last time I was grieving and extremely stressed it was easy to vilify the people causing it. Later W’s love and support were a big part of my recovery. Now W and I are the causes of this grief and stress. Vilifying either of use is not productive and the love and support I recovered with are what I am grieving the loss of.
I am at work and I really need to take a break to GAL for a while to put my head on straight but leaving now is not a wise choice. Time to take a walk around the building and bleed the stress away even a little. Change the scene. Have a talk with God. Meditate for a couple of minutes.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
