Cautiously optimistic

[~¤DG¤~]

I'm trying to, I really am.
I don't know if it's because I haven't been feeling well and have been cooped up all week, but today is just a really emotionally trying day.

I broke down and sobbed in the shower, and also on my way home from the clinic. I just feel so sad.

Sad and alone.

I cried to God to help me, that I don't want to hurt anymore, and to give me a sign that He is listening to me.

How does this happen? How does this become of 2 people who love each other so much?

Am I ever going to have a normal, healthy relationship?