Sounds like you are having a rough week. I know exactly what you are saying about wanting "your" family back. I have dated a lot. The thought of blending families and marrying someone else just depresses me. After several dates I began to realize that I was just looking for what my ex use to be... daunting isn't it...
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11