With current circumnstances I don't think that will ever happen.
She does seem a bit intrigued by what I am doing and where I am going, but I think it is just in a friendly small talk kind of fashion. We do that quite well.
I'm not sure she is capable of understanding how her words and actions might impact on me, or being able to put herself in my shoes in the way that I'm trying so hard to do for her.
We are living in a house as friends, and I think that is exactly what she wants right now. She hasn't asked me to leave yet, so I assume that's what she wants.
The positive start to the day is allowing me to cope with it though. She came into my room this morning and smiled at me (or possibly just the cat) with the cat sitting on my chest for a tummy rub. She asked if I wanted to finish off her cup of tea and left it on the bedside table. Then she left and shouted "Have a good day, get your dissertation done! Bye." from the door. First time she's shouted anything from the door in a while. And that was the beginning of all the problems - that she stopped shouting "I love you" on her way out.
Must be patient. Await counselling on Monday - maybe more answers about how she's feeling in regard to our non-relationship then.
Reality is that which, if you don't believe in it, doesn't go away.
