Most days I am doing really well. I still have bad days, and you all know what I mean by that, but all in all I feel good. I have lost 59.5lbs and I am hoping to hit the 60lb mark before next Tuesday! I have been very busy with projects around the house and looking for a job. Which I think I have one, just waiting to hear a start date.
I have come to realize the H has done nothing but walk away from his responsibilities. Living with his parents, his mother cooks and does his laundry for him. He gets to go spend time with OW whenever he wants. No mowing the yard, no chauffeuring D16 around, no cooking, cleaning or laundry. No taking the trash out, no worry about the bills. He is living like a freaking teenager!! Anywho, I am looking forward to a weekend away from all the responsibility as I will NOT be here this weekend when he has time with D16 and I have already started to make plans to not be here most of the next scheduled weekend also. Just keeps me off the rollercoaster. I love him, but do not like him very much right now. He is not the man I married and therefor I just don't want to be around him.
Okay, I will update next week and let you know how my BD goes, not a big one, I will be 47. Still young enough to get into trouble, but old enough to know better! (((HUGS))) and blessings to all!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
