The year of not my problem

[AJM]

Can I say that it is not the parents that are causing this? You already know that the blame lies squarely with him though. His choices. He decided regardless of the direction he got.

Rage? Yep. My favorite so far is her timing. She wanted very little when she moved out. Her lawyer says she got a "pittance" Money? Hasn't been enough for her. The list continues. But know what? There is nothing left to argue over. Now that she is coming closer to letting go of the material, it must be time to fight over the kids. The same ones she left on Mother's day a few years ago. It sounds bitter when I say that, but really I don't feel bitter. I'm disappointed that I have been right so far almost without fail. It's going to get more intense in the next year I'm sure. And my physical safety? I really am concerned. My thought is that now that she has time to focus on something other than her school, that she'll use that time and energy to rage against me. If she doesn't get what she wants from the therapist? Nobody really knows, but I'm guessing that it won't be pretty as well.
The thing is, what I was telling you before. It stops when you make it stop. When you let go and don't let it bother you anymore. When you know it'll happen and you see it happen, but remain calm and mean it.
I really have let all the "things" go. The daily barrage? That's another story. I do feel I have to defend myself, except that my method is that of Ghandi - passively. There is no benefit to working hard at defending myself. What happens happens. But I do have to watch out for the kids well being. I do have to ensure I'm getting them what they need and that they are well taken care of by a parent that cares for them. I believe she cares. I do. I believe she cares for them but that she cares about herself more. I do not believe she is getting the therapist for their benefit. Her emails indicate I'm right that she has an alterior motive.
Ok. It is what it is and I'll deal with it accordingly. Just have to put more energy into defending than I'd really like. But I can see how the next few years will play out.
I am tired. But that's of no consequence really. It just is as well.
Time will tell.

AJ