Journal Entry: Feeling a little low this morning. My W's childhood friend is getting married this weekend and she is attending without me. It's a 2nd wedding so it will be kind of low-key with a small reception. She told her friend that I was too busy with kid stuff to come along, but the truth is she doesn't want me there due to the current sitch. She also doesn't want me there since the OM will be there. He is another childhood friend of theirs that she "reconnected" with last year after 20-years of no contact. I never met the guy and she won't tell me his name. The OM is also going to the wedding solo since he is going through a D. I'm trying not to dwell on it too much, but It's hard not to picture my W and OM sitting in the church together, having a good time at the reception together, and continuing to bond as they discuss their common marriage problems. I'll be at home with the kids all night trying not to think about it. I imagine my W will come home very late and mention that they all decided to go out after the reception to a bar or something, and it will take all my strength not to ask any questions. I'm almost to the point where I really want her out of the house so I don't have to know what she is doing and when she comes home.
Me 46 W 43 M 17 S 14 D 11 ILYB 9/2010 EA began July/August 2010 ? PA began Nov/Dec 2010 ? I began DB in Jan 2011 I filed 7/12/11 Kids and I moved out 7/30/11 I'm in it for the kids and me.
