Well, down to the last 7 weeks of my marriage. What a roller coaster ride. One minute I can't wait to start over and find what kind of wonderful new things/people are out there for me to discover. Next minute I'm completely down and can't believe that this is really happening and my family is falling apart right in front of me.
Nothing has really changed. She acts like everything is cool when we are together, but still texting OM 100 times a day, and two or three phone calls a day. She is actively looking for an apartment. At the same time, talking about what WE need to do to our house! We need to fix this, we need to paint that, etc. Calling me "Hon", taking a bite of food of off my fork, making me my favorite pie. Yet wanting to walk away from our house, marriage, and family.
I'm working out. Buying some new clothes. Maybe go back to school and finish my degree (I'm close). In short - trying to fix and do what's best for me. I know that I am only a couple of months into what is surely a long journey. And every trip to the lawyer reminds me just how difficult it is going to be. Never thought in a million years I would be trying this hard to protect myself from my own wife. That she would be the one trying to tear our family apart. AND, she seems to barely care. At all. I can understand if years of resentment had her feeling indifferent to me. But she seems indifferent to what her own children feel. It's just BAFFLING.
Ahhhhhhh - I'm rambling. Or venting. I'm not sure anymore. This is what happens when you go too long without posting - too many thoughts running through your head all at once. Too many to put down coherently!
