oh Shelby, I know it hurts hon)))) sooo btdt...take wii's advice... the R you had with him is dead, no use trying to find who/when/where... there is no answer he can give you that you are going to like... it will just drive you crazy and you will press for more details and you might get your curiosity satisfied but at a great price... please please, for your own good, don't seek anymore... the more I found out the angrier and hurt I got, it was a vicious cycle that was eating me alive, I was prisoner of my own resentment.
When he comes around, just be you, you don't need to put up a show for him, be courtious, and best of all, be gone, the less time you send around him the better, I found I healed much better if I did not see ex often. You were married for 20yrs, you are not going to heal in a couple of months, give yourself permission to hurt and acknowledge the pain, embrace it, and let it go.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
