Punkin, I like your style. You calls it like you sees it. LOL!

Of course, there is a part of you that hopes he would wake up. We "normal" people cant just shut off our feelings at will.

But you are right - he is still broken, and that is not someone you would want in your life in that state.

The not sleeping is from the anxiety of the upcoming court date and worry about the financials. It's amazing how the brain works even in sleep.

Take each thing as it comes. Does no good to get ahead of yourself. Treat yourself kindly. Rest when you can.

Hang in there, sweetie.