Still no reach out from the great and mighty OZ. I'd like to think my last email hit a tender spot, but won't count on it. That would be an expectation.
Very tired from getting no sleep, but know this is just a path I have to follow for the moment.
Expect to hear that he has discontinued autodraft for house pymt at any time. Don't imagine it will make him look good, but will it matter? Wondering if I will have to declare bankruptcy to avoid foreclosure of the house if he does. I know, I know, cross that bridge when I come to it.
There is this crazy little part of my brain that wants him to knock on the door some night soon and be there to tell me he has made a horrendous mistake. That he wants to work things out. Then I think, " And what if he did? He's still the same messed up, alcoholic individual that he was. Only a fool would take him back." I know that's the truth. He's made no effort that I know of to confront and deal with his inner demons. I would be taking back the same broken individual he was before. SIGH!!! Wish I didn't love the SOB.
