believe me, I'm not exactly looking for only nice things to say here. I'll take it from all angles. My W has said much worse recently.

What I meant is its tough to go through the book bc I was using it to save my M. I thought I would make myself better TO save it. I know in time, I'll feel better about that and still want to change myself but it's the other things about the possibilities of saving it that are out the window.

JTB - I've reached the end of the rope. Do I want it to end? No. But I do have no choice in the matter. If I prolong the inevitable it only causes more pain.

Today, I was trying to be very cooperative with W and she spewed venom even more. I took the high road and didn't play her reindeer games (she had the balls to say that I PLANNED this whole event) insanity...

I know what I have to work on and am doing that. As far as the M? It's over.

m 40
w 38
married 15
together 18
d11, d8
bomb 12/19/10
2nd bomb 3/30/11
COMPLETELY DONE