Side Trip from Forward Motion

[BeingMe]

So, H is not coming home tomorrow, after all. Apparently, they desperately need him there, so he will come home mid-May, unless something else happens. I was getting butterflies in anticipation of seeing him again, but it turned to nausea and swallowing tears when I saw the email.

I don't know how much longer I can handle the constant loneliness, and lack of companionship. I'm alone 80% of the time, and that is so unhealthy. Yes, I am in contact with friends and family via facebook/email/phone, but it's not the same.