The Roller Coaster Keeps on Rolling

[Denver_2010]

I simply CANNOT understand and accept how W moved into another R so quickly after leaving me...

I can, and so can you if you're willing to turn it around.

If your relationship had been everything you both vowed it would be, I'd have a hard time with it too.

Mine wasn't and hadn't been for a long while.

Neither was yours.

It had been 'dead' for awhile right?


Grateful...

For similar reasons above. Oh do not get me wrong. I...hate him.
I reserve that for a few people.

But, my actions...inactions, childish demands, selfishness...yadda yadda yadda.

My wife deserved better. She didn't deserve me contributing to her worsening self worth image. He built her up, helped her realize she was of worth and value...most certainly to him. He was around at one of my wife's lowest points.
Did the affair cause problems of self worth in her and morality...certainly, but he was giving her (ha-ha...inuendo) what she needed, and craved.

I wasn't there, I wasn't capable of it, and really...DBing would have been a trick at the time and faded with time. He did the crap I forgot to do, stopped doing. He reminded me of everything I SHOULD have been doing.

Helll...his memory still does.

Gratfeul.


He is still a slime suckking scumbag.

Wow Jack...

That is so similar to my situation... what I did and didn't do for my W... what OM brought to her life. How my W deserved better... I was only tearing her down... her confidence, her self worth. OM did the opposite.

Can I be grateful to OM for reminding me of everything I should do, or be, for W? I don't know. What you have said will make me think though. I know that his existence has reminded me of those things... but be grateful? Maybe.

Tough to be grateful and f'ing hate someone at the same time though...