"do you want to go?" ... I responded, "do you want me to go?" ... W said 'sure!' ... I then said, "just want to make sure that you want me to go. I feel paranoid about smothering you."
Had to pull this part out. Try to be more decisive. This kind of wishy-washy temperature taking kills attraction. She wouldn't ask you if she didnt want you to. Take it at face value and just accept the invitation. You don't smother a woman by just being with her, you smother her with emotional dependency, constantly checking her temperature, and general passive agressiveness/approval seeking behavior.
Thanks Spellfire. You are absolutely correct. That's why I included that part of that conversation. I knew that I had messed up as soon as I had the conversation. That is how my entire week has gone and I KNOW that I am slipping in the confident and decisive part of things. It is so unlike me. I think that was my point with my last post. The insecurity of the R is beginning to really wear on me. I know that I shouldn't expect to be made to feel secure by W right now, but that doesn't make it any easier.
Thanks for checking in. I appreciate it.
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M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce