I guess it's time I clarify my stance on all of this. Despite having agreed to a free pass I don't want her to have what would pretty much be PA or an EA. I only accepted because after reading DB and this forum I have come to realize that this is not a decision I can make for her. I know she herself has some serious misgivings about this arrangement, and I want her to fully make this decision for the sake of the marriage. I want to save the M hopefully close it someday. What do you guys think am I right? A fool?