Sunday went to church alone made sure I was impecably dressed. W commented "you look nice". At church there were a few guys from the local homeless shelter there. One stood up and told his sitch:Was a coordinations manager and software engineer for Microsoft. They downsized he lost his job.his W was 1 month shy of finishing medical school and kicked him to the curb (funny how that's a reoccurring theme) for OM and took the kids. He had no job, ended up losing his house. Began a drug/alcohol habit to cope and spiraled into a transient existance. Ended up here in my state.
This made me think if a Highly educated man such as him could lose everything then I could too.
Spent the rest of the day working on my cannondale, and the kids go kart I got them for xmas. It felt good to get my hands dirty and focus on something other than living on these boards for a change.
I have been talking to my father on almost a daliey basis. My mother and father where together 21 years and divorced back in 82 long after i was gone from the nest.
My father was a habitual adulterer,lier, ect. He was married twice and his last relationship with woman cost him his home. He now lives in a two car gagage and chain smokes as he watches TV from morning to night, not good (he had a stroke in 2000).
He has really educated me into how a person acts,thinks,ect. who habitually has A. He says he regrets everything he has ever done. He dosnt sleep at night and wishes he could have another chance with my mother after 30 years. Hes identified that he believes he has gone through a MLC in his 30's, about the time when he was in the thick of it. He claims to have snapped out of it back in 82 when he gotten involved with a woman and her 2 kids he picked up in a truck stop in florida (w #2 who left him).
I see alot of my W behaviors in his story. His exposure of his actions and behaviors,some of which he has never spoken of before, Is helping me to learn to detatch and become ambivilant to my own sitch.
So it is a new week and I have alot of DBing to do today. Sorry I have been long winded.
Update! A few minutes ago my carrier called (some might remember I substitute carrier)Man has she been a life saver. She is one of those people who supports my DBing efforts.Thoght she wanted me to work but she says she has some DB type materials she is gonna leave in my mailbox for me.Gotta get to it before the wife does. After talking to her I walked in with a smile on my face and I'm sure the W noticed. She asked who it was and I replied "A friend" Curiosity was all over her face. interesting...
