I've had some set-backs, I've been pursuing and telling my W that I love her. I had believed with her deciding to "stay", that it was a sign she was ready to to try and work on us.
She is stuck on the fact that "I just don't love you anymore, and I don't see that changing". She also says that my "wanting and needing her is annoying and very unattractive."
She believes that I'm just not the right man for her, and that I likely never was - she's just finally realized that she doesn't need me.
I have to get back to DB, I'd slowly stopped GAL because I was trying to be closer to her, make myself available to her. That has back fired big time. I'm going to get back to GAL, plan things with friends, and get out and enjoy the good weather.
I now understand that I need to just back off completely and live my life - see where that goes.
All the talk of downsizing, looking at houses together, talking about the future together (not about us, but a future with both of us) just had me feeling so good.
I actually cried yesterday for the first time in as long as I can remember - I don't want to live my life without her. I really don't, but sometimes I wonder if I'll be happy either way? If she stays for the kids, and the money then she won't really be with me anyways...
Me - 34 W - 33 M - 8 years T - 15 years D7, D5, D2 Bomb Nov 10/2010 "I'm not happy and INILWY" W Staying for the kids Mar 13/2011
