I need to simply live life, and love her while she figures this out. Up to a limit (PA, EA).
Most of my hobbies, friends, and things I like to do are back home. Here I have work, gym, kids, and that is it. When I get free time to myself, I don't know what to do with it. I will watch a movie, or hang out on the computer, but nothing more. There simply isn't anymore more for me here where we live.
Since Feb between my wife and I: - We don't say good morning or good night (unless I initiate it) - No kisses - No hugs - No spooning in bed (a fave for both of us) - Zero time spent together just the two of us - no dinners out, no watching TV, nothing. - Family time all together is rare other than dinner. Used to go all on bike rides, go out to a local park, etc. It's like she is forcing the family to be a bit split up ahead of her plans. - When the family is all home, she mostly retreats either on the computer or reading upstairs. Things between us are starting to feel very stale. I don't even know what to say to her anymore. The lack of depth in our conversations is very obvious.
Her moods and our relations way up and down. Some days, she is nice (but still disconnected). The next day doesn't even look at me and one word answers.
This morning I gave her a kiss goodbye, I just really needed it, even though it was probably a bit unwelcome and odd. This morning in bed I was struggling with my thoughts, remembering all the real connection we used to have, and the intimacy we have shared both physically and otherwise. Not bad to think about those, but it makes things much harder.
