Sparks I just wanted to say that I feel for you. I am going through a similar situation, and completely understand. Your resolve has kept me strong, and kept me from going insane. I actually read all 4 of your threads while my W was with the possible OW, "going out and having fun as friends". Reading it really helped me "go dark" that night. It may be hard to believe but you are strong and an inspiration to me. After much heartache I decided to finally start my own thread and share my story. I would be honored if you and some the other veteran BITS could take a quick look. Like most of our stories it is long and convoluted, so please bear with the long posts . I don't know you well, but you are like an older brother to me it seems.