Am I doing everything wrong?

[~¤DG¤~]

Confused,

I know exactly how it feels to want to do anything, absolutely anything to have your H come home. I also know the pain that you are in.
It consumes you. It is on your mind from the second you wake up until the
second you go to sleep. And if you wake up in the middle of the night, wellit's right there again. It's hard. Nothing hurts worse than a broken heart.

You really, really need to detach from him, as hard as it may be.
Be honest with yourself, if he showed up on your doorstep and said he wanted to work things out, would you welcome him back without reservations? I would hope not.

You need to set boundaries. You are allowing him to treat you like you are an option instead of a priority. You deserve better than that, so love yourself enough to deman better of yourself.

Work on loving you. Work on fixing you. As hard as it is don't make him your focus. Change for YOU. I know it's hard and I know you just want the pain to stop, but in the midst of pain is the biggest opportunity for growth.

Are you in C for yourself?

And I also read the other sitch's on here and the advice from others and it helps tremendously!!!