Side Trip from Forward Motion

[BeingMe]

Actually, Beatrice, moving on is pretty good db'ing. It aligns with detaching and GAL. I have been doing both for a long time. Or, at least, trying. Yet, still he can pull me in at odd times. It doesn't help that I was somewhat reliant during my illness. I hope I can become more independent in the future.

Doing nothing as WCW says isn't bad per se. It's better than doing the wrong thing. Sometimes, one tends to act foolishly when you're bored, or see no activity in the M, or feeling depressed, or whatever. This is where GAL helps, and I've not been able to get into something since returning from europe.

I wanted to get a LS last year, but he so hummed and hahed, that I realized that unless I got all the work done, he wasn't going to do anything himself. So, I changed my mind, and told him that if he wanted one, then he was going to have to initiate it. I asked him straight if he wanted to separate, and all he could say was a vague "well, you know, things haven't worked for long time." Not a "no", not a "yes". Nothing specific, and I have tried many times to pinpoint the exact issues. I have given up trying, unless I get some brilliant idea.

I do think there's a OW, but one that cannot commit to him, maybe????