It's been pretty tough. It's so hard focusing. Some days are ok but most are horrible. The mornings are the worst. I'm great if I don't talk to her but I have to for logistics and things.
I did try to get off the lease and couldn't. She said that once things are final, she will redo the lease with me off it. I think she is using it as a carrot for me to simply sign things.
What I'm realizing more and more each day is that I wasn't very happy in the relationship for quite some time. I have no idea why I'm holding on. I think its only for the kids now. That fact is really depressing me for sure.
I know I'll make it through it but it seems impossible right now.
m 40 w 38 married 15 together 18 d11, d8 bomb 12/19/10 2nd bomb 3/30/11 COMPLETELY DONE
