WAW tearing up our family part II

[ironMan]

Hi OnMyWay Thanks for checking on me :-)

Umm, I don't know. Usually I'm good. I have some hard times though.

She has stopped wearing her ring since last Weds. She hid from my family when they came to visit .... and then decided she'd come to dinner with us.

Yesterday, on my birthday .... she took me out to dinner. She gave me a kiss afterwards. I slipped, and asked for another ...she obliged though.

I got a pretty good buzz on during dinner and she drove home. On the way home, she got pulled over for changing lanes without signalling. She was very upset and crying. She then didn't have her current insurance card .... and she got upset at me. She said it was my fault ..... I validated ... just let her vent. Much different interaction than what we would've had in the past.

She then said that karma was getting her. This is the 2nd or 3rd time she made a comment like that. I asked her why she thought karma was after her. She said that it was because she was a bad person. I asked her what she meant .. and she said that she's bad because she is splitting up her family for selfish reasons.

How weird is that?

I woke up that night in a cold sweat ..... I had a nightmare that she told me she was getting ready to have a 3-way with 2 other guys. The thought of her with someone else makes me physically ill. I'm doing very well with everything else .. but we are each other's 1st and only.

On that note .... it's been 5 months of celibacy for me now. I'm starting to really resent her for that. Women check me out at the gym ... and I wonder .... why am I wearing my ring?

I dunno ..... this whole thing [censored]. She's a broken person who is about as selfish as they come.

So, all in all I've been very well but I've had some ACUTE pain at times.

She says she's moving in with her mom now ... which she vowed never to do. To be honest, I would rather she lived on her own so she could see how much that sucked.

But, I am looking forward to her moving out so I can heal myself.

I'm starting 2 new hobbies. My life is going to be very fun this summer.

Anyway .... I have to say .... I kinda hate her right now.