I think our shower will go fine tomorrow. I have no idea if we're doing anything tonight, but he said he would help me with my finance homework (he has access to things that I simply don't have access to to complete my homework). He seemed nicer this morning, just more receptive in general. I wonder if that's because he's leaving in two days.
Best friend really believes that he's not sleeping with the potential OW in California. I still just feel uncomfortable about it in general. And H has told me many times he's not having a PA with her, and doesn't really think it's been an EA either. But it still just leaves me uneasy.
I know I have to be super cool about him going to Cali. I don't know what time he's leaving, I just know he's leaving Sunday. I have no clue when he's coming back (although he did say it was only a week this time because his boss knows how close I am to my due date). My brother has agreed to stay with me next week so I won't be alone in the house while I'm 34 weeks pregnant.
I have a very busy week ahead, so at least I'll be occupied. And I'm taking care of wrapping up 2 major committments that I think will reflect well on me if I can show him those are finished despite all the BS that's been going on.
I still wish he wasn't going to be gone for a week. But his emotional unavailability is in some ways crappier when he's here than when he simply isn't here at all. He didn't ask me anything about the shower my work threw for me yesterday. He also hasn't asked about the baby at all in at least a few days.
I feel like most men have told me that they have all freaked out in some way before becoming a dad. And yes, I've heard of a few that did completely check out and abandon their child once it arrived, but that seems to be the exception and not the rule.
