I tried my first bit of DB again today.

I talked to my fil about our fishing trip and told him my D wasn't going with us, and that she was spending the day with my W and SD. He told me that my W just got off the phone with my MIL, W stated that we had an argument last night, and she wasn't sure if I was going to let her take her.

We cleared that up last night, and ended the conversation with her taking my D with her, and we both "made up" after our argument. I don't know where the confusion was.

I called W, she did not answer and called me back about an hour later.

I explained to her what her dad told me, and basically said I was confused bc I remember telling her that she could take her tomorrow, and I had even told her last night that it was never my intention to not let her take her.

We spoke lightly about how her night went, my Ds play, and her plans for tomorrow. She said she wanted to go with me to the play, but she worked till 4am and had to be back at 1pm today.

We talked a little more, then she said she had to let me go bc of work, and that she would call me later.

I think the only thing I did wrong was that I should have ended the conversation first. Other than that, I was upbeat, I did not sound depressed, and kept the conversation VERY light.

I just feel exhausted with being so attached to her emotionally right now, that I definitely realize that I need to detach ASAP.

I hope that I keep feeling this way. I am on my way to pick up our girls from school, then I am going to bring them back to our house so they can play for an hour or so bf we go to my inlaws tonight.


BITS

M:34 W:28
SD:9
D:6 (pr)
M:3 T:6
Separated 1/16/11
ILYBNILWY 10/25/10
PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10

I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...